I felt inspired to write this post before chemo tomorrow. I started thinking about the upcoming season, Thanksgiving in particular...yes, I know it's not even Halloween yet, I'm nutty. I have such a thankful heart, and I don't say that in a boastful way, I just mean that I feel so thankful that my heart is overflowing, and it's spilling out here. I am thankful for my family here, here in Missouri that have never made me feel like an 'in-law', they took me in and made me feel like one of their own, for many many years now. My husband and my boys, I know it is difficult right now. I see that look in my husbands eyes from time to time, sort of a sad, sorrowful look and he doesn't have to say anything for me to know what he's thinking. My boys who just go on as if everything is fine, Logan rubs my fuzzy head and Keegan makes jokes...which is all ok, I wouldn't want it any other way. My friends and family in North Carolina especially my sister that is so far away from me, I'm so thankful for her. Our many, many phone conversations and texts help keep us connected.
All of you. I am thankful for your support, the encouragement. I know I am not in this alone!
I think about my boys particularly going through this. We do not have a perfect life. I am not a perfect mother nor are they perfect children, I most often cling to the good and forget the bad. I am so thankful for them.
My baby Keegan circa 1997 who somehow turned into this:
...then grew facial hair??? When did all that happen? He will be turning 16 next month and driving? I know exactly why parents make their children earn their first car, it's one of those parenting secrets no one tells you about. It's to keep them close to home, to make their dependance on you last a little longer, to slow the time down just a little...I know this because it's exactly how I feel. I know once the car comes he'll be gone all the time...I remember running the roads constantly at that age....of course back then it only cost 20 bucks to fill my tank. ;)
And don't even get me started on this one. There must be something in the water making my boys grow so fast, and yet I haven't aged a bit!
This is the man that has been by my side for many, many years. So many years now, I hardly have any memories that don't include him. He's my rock and I depend on him so much.
I appreciate you coming by each day for the past 14 days, for your comments and emails, I hope I don't sound like a broken record.
I'm so thankful.